Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Counting my blessings :) @ 10:45 PM

Oh yea.. I managed to catch abit of what Pst Ulf preached on Sun morning.

"why me? Why me?" when it comes to disaster or "why not me? Why not me?" when it comes to blessing...

this touches me alot... cos I've came across this phase of my life, where I always envied of the blessings of others and questioned God why I have to go through so much at such a young age (though now still abit... God is great no matter what happens)

Until 1 day, was walking out NP's backdoor towards the bus stop, God spoke to me... that don't look at how others are being blessed, look at myself... most of the time God used people to be a blessing to them, while for me is different, God says He will bless me personally!

I also believe whatever He's going to give me will be based have a done my best? Do I deserve it? of course there will be time of surprises :)

I shall stop thinking / comparing who receive more blessings than me, but I shall walk out of myself and stand beside God to see how blessed am I!

Just as I ponder over all these few years of my life, I've come to a stage, where I know all these blessings are just nothing compare to the love that God had showered over my life all these years... I mean without Jesus, I won't be who I am today. Without all the trials and difficult times, I won't be as strong as I am today, (I won't say my foundation is very strong, but at least I know He is real and if I keep pressing in and holding on, breakthroughs will come when the timing is right!) and of course without all these blessings, not just monetary, but also in terms of family, friends, CGMs, leaders, mentors for the past 7yrs in CHC... oh come to think of that, coming Dec 1st week will mark my 7th years in CHC, and 3 days back marked my 6yrs in UM.

Hmm.. been recording all the special event of the year, and here it goes:
2000 - came to CHC
2001 - joined UM / gave my first Building Fund
2002 - Waterbaptised and name Faith
2003 - Promoted to OM
2004 - Promoted to MM / Graduated from Poly
2005 - Led my first team in UM / Fullfilled my BF for the first time
2006 - Promoted to TL
2007 - ??? yet to tell, shall decide what's the most memorable event by end of this yr :)


Okay, back to the topic about blessings..
Counting my blessings helps me to be content and realise how blessed am I!

Blessings come to me in many ways, not just monetary, but also friends and mentor

My family!
Papa, Mama, Ah Mama, Popo, Haohao, Didi. I love all of you!, been praying for your salvation! Really want to share with you all what I have! Just as the vision God had shown me, how much Jesus wants us to have what He has in heaven that He gave up His all in exchange for us, every single 1 of us, as long as we are willing to reach out to recieve him.
I am who I am cos of the loves, care and concern you all shown me since young. I'm the middle child, but I behave like the youngest in the family with everyone doting on me and pamper me all the time. though times you all scold me and was sad cos of what I did or said... I know deep inside you all still loves me and choose to forgive me! I promise I will be more loving to all of you!


Aaron papa
My first CGL, (he's 10yr my senior, yes he's old haha and had been telling me he's an old old man) been under him for... hmm.. like 4 or 5yrs before I move on to Alvin Yap, W306. and now Jenyu W435. He taught me alot, and he's the one on my 18th birthday told me "Baobao, you've grown up, you shouldn't be a crybaby anymore, got to be a strong gal!" from then on, I don't shed tears easily, unless I've been bullied haha
and of cos 他也教了我很多作人的道理... all his naggy doesn't fall on bad grounds, okay?

Jeremy Lee
my first BS teacher and a blesser during my youth, I am who I am cos of what he had sowed in my life. I'm now started to be a sower too, to bless people ard me whenever I see a need.
and he always tell me he can retired after he marry me off... hmm... still a long way bah! hehe
Though some misunderstanding happened lately, but just want to let you know you will always be my good big big bro no matter what happen! :)

Geraldine
As mentioned in my previous post! I love you sis, may our friendship grows and grows!!!

Madeline Chua
the one who trained and rised me up in UM. Learnt alot of thing through her, still remember the first thing she taught me was "My word is my bond" I shall always honor my word, if I say I will report at 6pm, I better mean it!
The time when I feel most don't want to serve, is the time I shall really serve, cos it's the time where I will be able to stomp the devil under my feet! Still remember once, my ex-cgm sms me sth quite nasty and I cried and cried just before duty, so I sms her can I take a break, cos too sad to serve... after exchg some sms, I decided to serve no matter what. Guess what? As I ushered in the congregations at level 4 cafe, with big wide smile, I saw the devil hiding from me, from the light that shone out of me! Amen!
and all the times she rejoices with me over my breakthroughs! and many many more

Jeff Mak
I used to be scare of him and never greet him whenever I see him, till 1 day he asked why I never greet him, then I replied, "hi bro Jeff" hee
I always give him alot of problem, what to do? my big kor kor mah, so must take gd care of his mei mei haha
Said sth that touched me alot, though we are all busy with our own things, we will always communicate spirit to spirit, he will sense sth whenever I'm not doing well or trouble and will be calling me just for a chat out of nowhere. there's once I was don't know what happened, but was feeling down and he saw me in msn and decided to call me like 3am? and joke with me over the phone. and a period where my family has all kinds of problems, he will be there to encourage and pray for me.
Where to find this kind of big kor kor? haha

Jenyu
My current CGL, who is full of loves! a few times I want to transfer CG, as there's alot of issues here and there, and being the oldest amg all the students... I felt very left out, of cos partly my fault, as I don't really spend time fellowshipping with them. She taught me to love and ask God what I can offer to the CG, rather than what I can get from them.
She's very cute also, always full of jokes and life experiences.

Lawrence Zheng
My current (old-looking) Sectn Leader. Though we always 斗嘴 and challenge who will give up and request to be transfer out of the sectn, but he's a very gd leader, always encourage me. Last year CNY I nearly left church (which I claimed I want to take a break from church), he woke me up from my ideas and shall stop being self-pity, cos it's not gg to work, I will end up leaving the church for good! when I'm discourage that I'm not good in my operation, he offered to arrange extra duties with me on Sunday to train me up (which I never go cos too lazy.. want to sleep) and opportunties to torture me.. no lah throw me into fire to train me up, I'm improving cos of what he did in a way. :)
He's a great blesser like Jeremy too! always around to bless the section! and of coz offer to lend me his locker to keep all the bday gifts... which I've yet to clear them for the past... 1 or 2mths... :P
And all the times he got nothing better to do, then to wake me up from my sleep to ask me qn... just like Aaron papa, always wrong timing, of all time, the 2 of them like to call me when I'm sleeping!!! haha

My UM kakis
You gals shld know who you are :) from strangers to acquaintance to friends to close sisters, I treasure and thank God for every single 1 of you! Thanks for being the stones in my life that I can polish myself to be the smooth and beautiful stone that will be chosen by God to fight against the enemies.

My Supper Guppies
Though supper is 1 of the main reason why I gain so weight for the past 1 yr, it's also the fellowship I had with you all that brings joy and laughter to my life. we shall eat less and talk more :)

My Beloved 2S4C
Chen Huat, Enoch, Chia Wei, Zhen Hong, Gary, Yunru, Yulin, Thomas, Eric, Susan,
(sis Ros, Glene, Mr Goh though leaving the ministry, but you were part of the team once) without you, I won't be a TL, cos nobody's a leader without sheeps. love you all so much, thanks for availing yourself to serve! You guys are just great!!! :) Hope to see all of you rise up in the ministry soon! :)

Whoo! what a long long post! haha
anyone I left out? hehe shall cont, very tired now.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Counting my blessings :) @ 10:45 PM

Oh yea.. I managed to catch abit of what Pst Ulf preached on Sun morning.

"why me? Why me?" when it comes to disaster or "why not me? Why not me?" when it comes to blessing...

this touches me alot... cos I've came across this phase of my life, where I always envied of the blessings of others and questioned God why I have to go through so much at such a young age (though now still abit... God is great no matter what happens)

Until 1 day, was walking out NP's backdoor towards the bus stop, God spoke to me... that don't look at how others are being blessed, look at myself... most of the time God used people to be a blessing to them, while for me is different, God says He will bless me personally!

I also believe whatever He's going to give me will be based have a done my best? Do I deserve it? of course there will be time of surprises :)

I shall stop thinking / comparing who receive more blessings than me, but I shall walk out of myself and stand beside God to see how blessed am I!

Just as I ponder over all these few years of my life, I've come to a stage, where I know all these blessings are just nothing compare to the love that God had showered over my life all these years... I mean without Jesus, I won't be who I am today. Without all the trials and difficult times, I won't be as strong as I am today, (I won't say my foundation is very strong, but at least I know He is real and if I keep pressing in and holding on, breakthroughs will come when the timing is right!) and of course without all these blessings, not just monetary, but also in terms of family, friends, CGMs, leaders, mentors for the past 7yrs in CHC... oh come to think of that, coming Dec 1st week will mark my 7th years in CHC, and 3 days back marked my 6yrs in UM.

Hmm.. been recording all the special event of the year, and here it goes:
2000 - came to CHC
2001 - joined UM / gave my first Building Fund
2002 - Waterbaptised and name Faith
2003 - Promoted to OM
2004 - Promoted to MM / Graduated from Poly
2005 - Led my first team in UM / Fullfilled my BF for the first time
2006 - Promoted to TL
2007 - ??? yet to tell, shall decide what's the most memorable event by end of this yr :)


Okay, back to the topic about blessings..
Counting my blessings helps me to be content and realise how blessed am I!

Blessings come to me in many ways, not just monetary, but also friends and mentor

My family!
Papa, Mama, Ah Mama, Popo, Haohao, Didi. I love all of you!, been praying for your salvation! Really want to share with you all what I have! Just as the vision God had shown me, how much Jesus wants us to have what He has in heaven that He gave up His all in exchange for us, every single 1 of us, as long as we are willing to reach out to recieve him.
I am who I am cos of the loves, care and concern you all shown me since young. I'm the middle child, but I behave like the youngest in the family with everyone doting on me and pamper me all the time. though times you all scold me and was sad cos of what I did or said... I know deep inside you all still loves me and choose to forgive me! I promise I will be more loving to all of you!


Aaron papa
My first CGL, (he's 10yr my senior, yes he's old haha and had been telling me he's an old old man) been under him for... hmm.. like 4 or 5yrs before I move on to Alvin Yap, W306. and now Jenyu W435. He taught me alot, and he's the one on my 18th birthday told me "Baobao, you've grown up, you shouldn't be a crybaby anymore, got to be a strong gal!" from then on, I don't shed tears easily, unless I've been bullied haha
and of cos 他也教了我很多作人的道理... all his naggy doesn't fall on bad grounds, okay?

Jeremy Lee
my first BS teacher and a blesser during my youth, I am who I am cos of what he had sowed in my life. I'm now started to be a sower too, to bless people ard me whenever I see a need.
and he always tell me he can retired after he marry me off... hmm... still a long way bah! hehe
Though some misunderstanding happened lately, but just want to let you know you will always be my good big big bro no matter what happen! :)

Geraldine
As mentioned in my previous post! I love you sis, may our friendship grows and grows!!!

Madeline Chua
the one who trained and rised me up in UM. Learnt alot of thing through her, still remember the first thing she taught me was "My word is my bond" I shall always honor my word, if I say I will report at 6pm, I better mean it!
The time when I feel most don't want to serve, is the time I shall really serve, cos it's the time where I will be able to stomp the devil under my feet! Still remember once, my ex-cgm sms me sth quite nasty and I cried and cried just before duty, so I sms her can I take a break, cos too sad to serve... after exchg some sms, I decided to serve no matter what. Guess what? As I ushered in the congregations at level 4 cafe, with big wide smile, I saw the devil hiding from me, from the light that shone out of me! Amen!
and all the times she rejoices with me over my breakthroughs! and many many more

Jeff Mak
I used to be scare of him and never greet him whenever I see him, till 1 day he asked why I never greet him, then I replied, "hi bro Jeff" hee
I always give him alot of problem, what to do? my big kor kor mah, so must take gd care of his mei mei haha
Said sth that touched me alot, though we are all busy with our own things, we will always communicate spirit to spirit, he will sense sth whenever I'm not doing well or trouble and will be calling me just for a chat out of nowhere. there's once I was don't know what happened, but was feeling down and he saw me in msn and decided to call me like 3am? and joke with me over the phone. and a period where my family has all kinds of problems, he will be there to encourage and pray for me.
Where to find this kind of big kor kor? haha

Jenyu
My current CGL, who is full of loves! a few times I want to transfer CG, as there's alot of issues here and there, and being the oldest amg all the students... I felt very left out, of cos partly my fault, as I don't really spend time fellowshipping with them. She taught me to love and ask God what I can offer to the CG, rather than what I can get from them.
She's very cute also, always full of jokes and life experiences.

Lawrence Zheng
My current (old-looking) Sectn Leader. Though we always 斗嘴 and challenge who will give up and request to be transfer out of the sectn, but he's a very gd leader, always encourage me. Last year CNY I nearly left church (which I claimed I want to take a break from church), he woke me up from my ideas and shall stop being self-pity, cos it's not gg to work, I will end up leaving the church for good! when I'm discourage that I'm not good in my operation, he offered to arrange extra duties with me on Sunday to train me up (which I never go cos too lazy.. want to sleep) and opportunties to torture me.. no lah throw me into fire to train me up, I'm improving cos of what he did in a way. :)
He's a great blesser like Jeremy too! always around to bless the section! and of coz offer to lend me his locker to keep all the bday gifts... which I've yet to clear them for the past... 1 or 2mths... :P
And all the times he got nothing better to do, then to wake me up from my sleep to ask me qn... just like Aaron papa, always wrong timing, of all time, the 2 of them like to call me when I'm sleeping!!! haha

My UM kakis
You gals shld know who you are :) from strangers to acquaintance to friends to close sisters, I treasure and thank God for every single 1 of you! Thanks for being the stones in my life that I can polish myself to be the smooth and beautiful stone that will be chosen by God to fight against the enemies.

My Supper Guppies
Though supper is 1 of the main reason why I gain so weight for the past 1 yr, it's also the fellowship I had with you all that brings joy and laughter to my life. we shall eat less and talk more :)

My Beloved 2S4C
Chen Huat, Enoch, Chia Wei, Zhen Hong, Gary, Yunru, Yulin, Thomas, Eric, Susan,
(sis Ros, Glene, Mr Goh though leaving the ministry, but you were part of the team once) without you, I won't be a TL, cos nobody's a leader without sheeps. love you all so much, thanks for availing yourself to serve! You guys are just great!!! :) Hope to see all of you rise up in the ministry soon! :)

Whoo! what a long long post! haha
anyone I left out? hehe shall cont, very tired now.