Friday, January 11, 2008

@ 1:19 AM

Often ppl will tell me, when I can't take it anymore... I have to voice myself out and seek help if not nobody will know... but when I did, was told not to complain so much... so shall I say it out then? Or shall I just keep my mouth shut?

Alot of time, I don't feel appreciated either or do they know what I've been doing on their behalf? Or... they don't they are suppose to do them?
people tell me they are here to help me cos they care for me...but at the end of the day I'm still the one doing it...
Pls don't promise if you can act on it... 期望越高，失望也往往越大, so 听就好，不要希望别人能为你做些什么

Someone also said, I should always plan things ahead and shall respect people of their time, plan and schedule...but ain't mine as impt?
the same person also said, it's too early to tell, shall wait a while longer, so what shall I do? When is the right time to ask then?

Though I'm 'super free' compare to others, but I'm not I'm obliged to do it... I do need my rest and breaks too.. I have my own things I need to settle too...

Well at the end of the day I'm just a complainer.. and don't appreciate ppl of their effort... this is me... pls don't compare or even expect me to be like what others are practicing... I am created uniquely the way I am!

just so tired of all these!

说多了， 做多了， 自然错得也会错得多, might end up adding more problems to myself.
Shall just take a step back, relax, and don't interfere too much?

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Pst preached about forgiveness this weekend... and yes I shall learn to forgive and perharps forget... and it's often when we are trying hard to forget the incident.. it get even more clear in our mind of what happened...

we forgive not cos the other party had asked for our forgiveness, but cos God had forgiven us 1st!

and often... when we forgave... it doesn't means we can still trust or be as close as the other party as before... remember once bitten, twice shy...

What will become of me... if I kept holding on to the hurt?
Believe it's sth I need to overcome this year...
- 9th Feb 08, 3.55am

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我是自私的！！！

我不喜欢和别人分享。。。 就如我的东西，我一定要是第一位开或用过，才能让别
人用。。。

1月13日是我的生日。。。 从小到大，都是和我哥哥一起庆祝，因为只相差两天。。


而在教会我总是没蛋糕， 因为每年的首两个星期没有小组。。。 也不能带食物进
礼堂。。。

而近几年，朋友都是为我和 Matthew 一起庆祝，因为是同一天。。。
在UM里，也是以起，因同一个Section。。。
从今年起，在小组，也是跟Matthew一起庆祝。。因为他现在和我同一个小组。。。



难道就不能自为我一个人庆祝吗?
我不喜欢和别人分享我的东西。。。我是自私的！！！
-9th Feb08

Friday, January 11, 2008

@ 1:19 AM

Often ppl will tell me, when I can't take it anymore... I have to voice myself out and seek help if not nobody will know... but when I did, was told not to complain so much... so shall I say it out then? Or shall I just keep my mouth shut?

Alot of time, I don't feel appreciated either or do they know what I've been doing on their behalf? Or... they don't they are suppose to do them?
people tell me they are here to help me cos they care for me...but at the end of the day I'm still the one doing it...
Pls don't promise if you can act on it... 期望越高，失望也往往越大, so 听就好，不要希望别人能为你做些什么

Someone also said, I should always plan things ahead and shall respect people of their time, plan and schedule...but ain't mine as impt?
the same person also said, it's too early to tell, shall wait a while longer, so what shall I do? When is the right time to ask then?

Though I'm 'super free' compare to others, but I'm not I'm obliged to do it... I do need my rest and breaks too.. I have my own things I need to settle too...

Well at the end of the day I'm just a complainer.. and don't appreciate ppl of their effort... this is me... pls don't compare or even expect me to be like what others are practicing... I am created uniquely the way I am!

just so tired of all these!

说多了， 做多了， 自然错得也会错得多, might end up adding more problems to myself.
Shall just take a step back, relax, and don't interfere too much?

--------------------------------------------------------------
Pst preached about forgiveness this weekend... and yes I shall learn to forgive and perharps forget... and it's often when we are trying hard to forget the incident.. it get even more clear in our mind of what happened...

we forgive not cos the other party had asked for our forgiveness, but cos God had forgiven us 1st!

and often... when we forgave... it doesn't means we can still trust or be as close as the other party as before... remember once bitten, twice shy...

What will become of me... if I kept holding on to the hurt?
Believe it's sth I need to overcome this year...
- 9th Feb 08, 3.55am

______________________________________________________________

我是自私的！！！

我不喜欢和别人分享。。。 就如我的东西，我一定要是第一位开或用过，才能让别
人用。。。

1月13日是我的生日。。。 从小到大，都是和我哥哥一起庆祝，因为只相差两天。。


而在教会我总是没蛋糕， 因为每年的首两个星期没有小组。。。 也不能带食物进
礼堂。。。

而近几年，朋友都是为我和 Matthew 一起庆祝，因为是同一天。。。
在UM里，也是以起，因同一个Section。。。
从今年起，在小组，也是跟Matthew一起庆祝。。因为他现在和我同一个小组。。。



难道就不能自为我一个人庆祝吗?
我不喜欢和别人分享我的东西。。。我是自私的！！！
-9th Feb08