Monday, April 28, 2008

@ 1:33 AM

I need a dust bin to throw all my burdens away, lock it up into the deep sea of God that says 'No Fishing' and 'No Swimming'

I'm like a Martha, too busy with works all ard me, ministry team, training, cg fellowships, SOT, tuition, family, finance, personal things...

all so sudden and need to settle them all at the same time... stime just felt like giving all things up and say I surrender and walk out of it... yes I really want... just like yest... as getting some things done b4 i can leave the house, and ppl just kept calling to ask things... printer ink finished... reply sms... it just got out of hand... I should have ignore all calls and only reply when I'm out of the hse... i should have chg my printer ink the night before when it prompt me to chg... i should have printed out the recruitment forms the night earlier...
So many I should have,... but is all too late...

while waiting for feeder bus... it took me a while to realize... no bus is turning in to my area due to the jam at custom.. from there till I finally reach the bus stop to take my bus to interchg... I was just like a lost sheep... not knowing what I shall I do next? take cab or bus? cab will cost about 20bucks... almost a wk of my bus fare... bus... I'm already late... kept thinking why am i making all the wrong decision, doing all the wrg things at the wrong time...

I wish I could just sms them to find a replacement for my duty... I just need a break...need a good rest... I deserve a good rest don't I? everyone has and deserve a rest... so I deserve it too, can I?

throwing all these into a big dustbin, sealed and throw into God's sea with a sign that says... No Fishing and No Swimming!

I need to learn to let go and let God... but what does it means?
I need a rest, a good rest :)

Monday, April 28, 2008

@ 1:33 AM

I need a dust bin to throw all my burdens away, lock it up into the deep sea of God that says 'No Fishing' and 'No Swimming'

I'm like a Martha, too busy with works all ard me, ministry team, training, cg fellowships, SOT, tuition, family, finance, personal things...

all so sudden and need to settle them all at the same time... stime just felt like giving all things up and say I surrender and walk out of it... yes I really want... just like yest... as getting some things done b4 i can leave the house, and ppl just kept calling to ask things... printer ink finished... reply sms... it just got out of hand... I should have ignore all calls and only reply when I'm out of the hse... i should have chg my printer ink the night before when it prompt me to chg... i should have printed out the recruitment forms the night earlier...
So many I should have,... but is all too late...

while waiting for feeder bus... it took me a while to realize... no bus is turning in to my area due to the jam at custom.. from there till I finally reach the bus stop to take my bus to interchg... I was just like a lost sheep... not knowing what I shall I do next? take cab or bus? cab will cost about 20bucks... almost a wk of my bus fare... bus... I'm already late... kept thinking why am i making all the wrong decision, doing all the wrg things at the wrong time...

I wish I could just sms them to find a replacement for my duty... I just need a break...need a good rest... I deserve a good rest don't I? everyone has and deserve a rest... so I deserve it too, can I?

throwing all these into a big dustbin, sealed and throw into God's sea with a sign that says... No Fishing and No Swimming!

I need to learn to let go and let God... but what does it means?
I need a rest, a good rest :)