Tuesday, July 08, 2008

@ 11:24 PM

Hmm... i nearly forgot my login ID and password... haha

Anyway... time flies... and it's the count down period of SOT... excited? sad? happy? not very sure... just felt that time really flies if you are not careful...

1st Mission Trip update...
Went Kedah, Pst Daniel's church... oh man, he is so young! i think 1yr younger than me? and he already found his destiny and calling!
And heard his other half and monther is attending this yr's SOT... my coursemate woh... but don't know who haha

Had fun time being an usher there, well... just somehow 1 my IC's runner spotted me.. and ask me to do usher... hmmm I tried to shun... cos Xiu says, go mission trip must do something diff... but back to Ushering, quite zobo also... while I manage to shun the Hall move from Hall 8 to 1, I did chair arrangement there lor haha...

Didn't really get to mix with the youth there... hmm sob~ maybe I'm just too shy...
Some unhappy things happened... but it made me grow up and realise this world is not perfect and I'm not either, instead of dwelling in them, I shall move on and make sure I don't commit the same mistakes!

My ah mama was sick for a few weeks, she suddenly look so weak... but am glad she's healed now! and the smile and glow in her eyes are back :)
keep praying for her!

My ah di is back from UK finally!!! :)
Had a party to welcome him back, to read more, pls refer to another blog entry by my kor kor, under the link Hao Hao :)

The Week with Pst Kong:
Happened to be my PA week, have to report at 6.30am every morning! and I wasn't late at all, except 1st day... cos the attd team set up late.. my Lao Da say will appeal for us! haha Thanks Will for driving Xiao Xuan, Huiling and me to sch every morning! If not will cab for the whole week, my pocket will burn a big big hole!

Helped out with the luncheon for Pst Kong with the international students also! and We got to eat all of them!! and Pst Yong prepared some dishes as well... yum yum!
But was scolded... cos commit some mistake here and there... which I shldn't have done... :(

(while typing, I smelt durian!!! yum yum! my bro's friend bought durian for us! yum yum)

Preaching Test:
preached for the 1st 5 times of my life... hmm the sermon just got from oki to bad.. that I redo all my sermon before I submit the following, at least i can be at peace that I did my best....
I was evaluated by Gabriel, Dev, Jimmy, Wenkai and Pst Ming
Learnt alot from all of them, I might not have a chance to preach again.. but will always remember the fun time when I preach... my friend says I look confident... but somehow my confident level drop from day to day... on the day Jimmy came... I don't why I was so nervous that I can't even talk well and was trembling...

Deliverance Week:
The sat before this week... I was at church having mtg, kept hearing a voice telling me to stand up an dwalk out from the mtg, I am wasting my time at church, shld go home and rest instead... was so terrible that I struggle and cried half way through... I decide to stay for svc, and felt better after the sermon, I'm glad I stayed. just like what Madeline told me before, when the devil attacked me, I shld fight back and persist on, shan't let him win! I shall fight till he hides at one corner!

Was a great week, Pst Mike prayed for me, had casted out spirit of rejection and fear... not once, but twice!
just somehow, the week earlier, suddenly i will sense a spirit of fear even when I'm at church, CG or with people I'm closed with... i have to keep speaking in tongues and meditate on the WOG to calm myself.
as for spirit of rejection... hmm been with me since young? and lately alot of things happened... Ruth was the one who prayed for me on the 2nd day...
Oh ya, very interesting how pst Mike end up laying hand on me... well I was helping out and happened to be near him, initiately he walk the other way, and he turned back to me, and keep looking at me, then pom, i'm down and start crying like a baby, 2 person prayed for me... was quite confusing as at 1 point of time, i heard 1 prayer on my left, another on my right... I don't know who to response to.. finally the one on the left end her prayers on casting out spirit of divination while the right star after awhile casting out spirit of rejection and fear, and the person who prayed for me was Ruth, my lao da's buddy.

On the last day, I prayed for 1 of my team member, Jiale, wah so happy, I get to pray for someone and deliver her half? cos the other party who initiate the prayer, end off the while thing.. while I just felt it's not over... but she ask Jiale to stand up and gave her a hug already when she still look lost... I actually 1 2 cont to pray for her... but ... lack of courage?

Pst Mike taught us alot this year, unlike previous yrs, whenever I attend wkend svc with him, he only talk about how deliverence took place, it is alot deeper into it this time round, I get to learn how to discern spirit, meditate WOG, impactation etc.

To think I nearly gave up a few weeks earlier... really want to throw in the white cloth... Just felt I'm not in the right condition to continue... but just like what I've seen, before great things gg to happened, opposition will take place... I can't say I'm very li hai or what... but indeed a spiritual warfare is going on, which I wan't able to sense it till last week, that if I were to give up then, I won't be set free and go on to another level with God... the intimacy I used to have with God when I was younger, all seems to come back, just as I've been longing for...
Thank You Lord!

Current Week:
1 project reading
2 exam papers
3 assignments
bible reading
Five Fold Ministries with Pst Ming

6 more weeks! and SOT will end.. it just seems so fast!! friendships, hardship, slacking!

14 weeks just past so fast!

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

@ 11:24 PM

Hmm... i nearly forgot my login ID and password... haha

Anyway... time flies... and it's the count down period of SOT... excited? sad? happy? not very sure... just felt that time really flies if you are not careful...

1st Mission Trip update...
Went Kedah, Pst Daniel's church... oh man, he is so young! i think 1yr younger than me? and he already found his destiny and calling!
And heard his other half and monther is attending this yr's SOT... my coursemate woh... but don't know who haha

Had fun time being an usher there, well... just somehow 1 my IC's runner spotted me.. and ask me to do usher... hmmm I tried to shun... cos Xiu says, go mission trip must do something diff... but back to Ushering, quite zobo also... while I manage to shun the Hall move from Hall 8 to 1, I did chair arrangement there lor haha...

Didn't really get to mix with the youth there... hmm sob~ maybe I'm just too shy...
Some unhappy things happened... but it made me grow up and realise this world is not perfect and I'm not either, instead of dwelling in them, I shall move on and make sure I don't commit the same mistakes!

My ah mama was sick for a few weeks, she suddenly look so weak... but am glad she's healed now! and the smile and glow in her eyes are back :)
keep praying for her!

My ah di is back from UK finally!!! :)
Had a party to welcome him back, to read more, pls refer to another blog entry by my kor kor, under the link Hao Hao :)

The Week with Pst Kong:
Happened to be my PA week, have to report at 6.30am every morning! and I wasn't late at all, except 1st day... cos the attd team set up late.. my Lao Da say will appeal for us! haha Thanks Will for driving Xiao Xuan, Huiling and me to sch every morning! If not will cab for the whole week, my pocket will burn a big big hole!

Helped out with the luncheon for Pst Kong with the international students also! and We got to eat all of them!! and Pst Yong prepared some dishes as well... yum yum!
But was scolded... cos commit some mistake here and there... which I shldn't have done... :(

(while typing, I smelt durian!!! yum yum! my bro's friend bought durian for us! yum yum)

Preaching Test:
preached for the 1st 5 times of my life... hmm the sermon just got from oki to bad.. that I redo all my sermon before I submit the following, at least i can be at peace that I did my best....
I was evaluated by Gabriel, Dev, Jimmy, Wenkai and Pst Ming
Learnt alot from all of them, I might not have a chance to preach again.. but will always remember the fun time when I preach... my friend says I look confident... but somehow my confident level drop from day to day... on the day Jimmy came... I don't why I was so nervous that I can't even talk well and was trembling...

Deliverance Week:
The sat before this week... I was at church having mtg, kept hearing a voice telling me to stand up an dwalk out from the mtg, I am wasting my time at church, shld go home and rest instead... was so terrible that I struggle and cried half way through... I decide to stay for svc, and felt better after the sermon, I'm glad I stayed. just like what Madeline told me before, when the devil attacked me, I shld fight back and persist on, shan't let him win! I shall fight till he hides at one corner!

Was a great week, Pst Mike prayed for me, had casted out spirit of rejection and fear... not once, but twice!
just somehow, the week earlier, suddenly i will sense a spirit of fear even when I'm at church, CG or with people I'm closed with... i have to keep speaking in tongues and meditate on the WOG to calm myself.
as for spirit of rejection... hmm been with me since young? and lately alot of things happened... Ruth was the one who prayed for me on the 2nd day...
Oh ya, very interesting how pst Mike end up laying hand on me... well I was helping out and happened to be near him, initiately he walk the other way, and he turned back to me, and keep looking at me, then pom, i'm down and start crying like a baby, 2 person prayed for me... was quite confusing as at 1 point of time, i heard 1 prayer on my left, another on my right... I don't know who to response to.. finally the one on the left end her prayers on casting out spirit of divination while the right star after awhile casting out spirit of rejection and fear, and the person who prayed for me was Ruth, my lao da's buddy.

On the last day, I prayed for 1 of my team member, Jiale, wah so happy, I get to pray for someone and deliver her half? cos the other party who initiate the prayer, end off the while thing.. while I just felt it's not over... but she ask Jiale to stand up and gave her a hug already when she still look lost... I actually 1 2 cont to pray for her... but ... lack of courage?

Pst Mike taught us alot this year, unlike previous yrs, whenever I attend wkend svc with him, he only talk about how deliverence took place, it is alot deeper into it this time round, I get to learn how to discern spirit, meditate WOG, impactation etc.

To think I nearly gave up a few weeks earlier... really want to throw in the white cloth... Just felt I'm not in the right condition to continue... but just like what I've seen, before great things gg to happened, opposition will take place... I can't say I'm very li hai or what... but indeed a spiritual warfare is going on, which I wan't able to sense it till last week, that if I were to give up then, I won't be set free and go on to another level with God... the intimacy I used to have with God when I was younger, all seems to come back, just as I've been longing for...
Thank You Lord!

Current Week:
1 project reading
2 exam papers
3 assignments
bible reading
Five Fold Ministries with Pst Ming

6 more weeks! and SOT will end.. it just seems so fast!! friendships, hardship, slacking!

14 weeks just past so fast!