Wednesday, April 30, 2008

@ 1:04 AM

was fasting these few days, on Sat, Mon and Tuesday... and encounter the same thing... with people question how I define my veggy fast... well with my faith I fast my best... and it's written in the bible, each according to our own faith...to some is only vegetable, to me veggy fast is just as long as meat-less...

It's according to my faith that I fast, and I believe it's how u set it, before you start fasting, you set the standard of what your fast will be like and what are the things you need to refrain from...

No point setting what you've been doing unto others... and insist they must do likewise... you might end up stumbling people :)

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Had a wonderful time fasting and I did something crazy... I call and asked my brother 1 2 eat ban mian... and will see him eat... to tempt myself haha no lah... just that the ban mian opp JW church is nice so I want to share the joy of eating yummy food with them hehe

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Finally voice out sth and made my stand... it's time to draw line and protect myself from being hurt... might not be due to what other did, but I have to stop negative thoughts from haunting me over and over again with all the grieve and unjust (in my opinion) done to me... at least I've said it out and not let the bitterness to cont growing in me

not always things go on like how we perceive it to be, has we look at things from the right point of view? not from people, but from God... through a lens that washed by the blood of Jesus... often we chose to look at our own circumstances and insist that we are victim and deserve all the pities and attentions from people, but end up you are the one who will suffer all the torments from the devil alone... while people just move on with their life.

How I know? Cos I've been there, done that, took a pic and come back in 1 piece!
Been years since it happened, at that time, another cgm of mine has self-pity on ourselves and keep dwelling in what happened when in actual fact, nothing to do with me in the first place...

No point doing so, cos it's a complete waste of time to dwell in what can't be undone... why not just focus on God, and allow Him to wash it away...

Having a spiritual warfare these few days... as bitterness starts to step in, I gave in and devt it into a bigger prob, of me crying and crying, shotting out my unhappiness to innocent people in my family... until I made a decision to stop allowing the devil to use me... I decide to put on a smile and move on...
Of cos constantly voices of telling me how pity I was in these situations blah blah... I need to ask them to shut up! they shall have no foothold over my life!

What's past is past... even if friendship are lost, is lost... and will nv be the same, defense lines (from both parties) are up, but I know it's okay, you lose some, you gain some...

you lost me, but believe you will gain some more, I lost you, I also believe I will gain some more...

Nevermind Life Still Goes On no matter what :)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

@ 1:04 AM

was fasting these few days, on Sat, Mon and Tuesday... and encounter the same thing... with people question how I define my veggy fast... well with my faith I fast my best... and it's written in the bible, each according to our own faith...to some is only vegetable, to me veggy fast is just as long as meat-less...

It's according to my faith that I fast, and I believe it's how u set it, before you start fasting, you set the standard of what your fast will be like and what are the things you need to refrain from...

No point setting what you've been doing unto others... and insist they must do likewise... you might end up stumbling people :)

==========================================================
Had a wonderful time fasting and I did something crazy... I call and asked my brother 1 2 eat ban mian... and will see him eat... to tempt myself haha no lah... just that the ban mian opp JW church is nice so I want to share the joy of eating yummy food with them hehe

==========================================================

Finally voice out sth and made my stand... it's time to draw line and protect myself from being hurt... might not be due to what other did, but I have to stop negative thoughts from haunting me over and over again with all the grieve and unjust (in my opinion) done to me... at least I've said it out and not let the bitterness to cont growing in me

not always things go on like how we perceive it to be, has we look at things from the right point of view? not from people, but from God... through a lens that washed by the blood of Jesus... often we chose to look at our own circumstances and insist that we are victim and deserve all the pities and attentions from people, but end up you are the one who will suffer all the torments from the devil alone... while people just move on with their life.

How I know? Cos I've been there, done that, took a pic and come back in 1 piece!
Been years since it happened, at that time, another cgm of mine has self-pity on ourselves and keep dwelling in what happened when in actual fact, nothing to do with me in the first place...

No point doing so, cos it's a complete waste of time to dwell in what can't be undone... why not just focus on God, and allow Him to wash it away...

Having a spiritual warfare these few days... as bitterness starts to step in, I gave in and devt it into a bigger prob, of me crying and crying, shotting out my unhappiness to innocent people in my family... until I made a decision to stop allowing the devil to use me... I decide to put on a smile and move on...
Of cos constantly voices of telling me how pity I was in these situations blah blah... I need to ask them to shut up! they shall have no foothold over my life!

What's past is past... even if friendship are lost, is lost... and will nv be the same, defense lines (from both parties) are up, but I know it's okay, you lose some, you gain some...

you lost me, but believe you will gain some more, I lost you, I also believe I will gain some more...

Nevermind Life Still Goes On no matter what :)