Wednesday, January 23, 2008

@ 1:42 AM

TIRED...

Tired of not enough rest... can't seen to sleep well at night... not to mention can't sleep early... seens to have lots of things to do at night... which in actual fact... nothing...

Tired of seeing and hearing, experiencing things or rather how I look at things...
Been thinking so much lately... that I shall sanctify my mind and tune it to think like the way God think, seeing things the way God sees, hearing the way God hears...
It's hard... but just got to try...

Tired of wavering to what diff people comment... I want tp be myself.. a character/personality of my own... to be able to stand out amg the rest.
To be one who people will look up to.. not just a shadow in other people... which sometime caught in between...

Tired of being used... nvm shan't say much... but hope it will be over soon...
thought of explaining to the other parties involve who might once again think it's my fault/doing again...
but like what Pst Kong preached last week. I have the confidence that God is with me, and I'm doing nothing wrong on my side... I need not explain at all.. God is my confidence.. if anything bad turns out. I have a clear conscience :)

Tired of always hiding myself from people... it just like, people I'm 'close' with... I will go to the extend of pretending never see them, why? last time is I will siam leaders (ZS, other zone cgls, ministry leaders) now even friends... :(
But times, it's not I siam people, but I'm 大近视, can't really see unless I'm quite near you? maybe is a gd excuse not to greet people?
Don't know why.. it's just me.. I wanted so much to be close to people, yet scare of being hurt... maybe is a way to protect myself, maybe is just my own pride? whatever...

Tired of being tired... I have a very tired-look, guess is lack of rest and lack of vitamins? Tovia saw me just now without my make up... she said I look very sick and tired.. got to rest more..
Hmm when can I ever look healthy? and most imptly be healthier?
Well, I do have rosy cheeks at times... but it's my eye circles... maybe shall invest in some detox/facial that will helps! any sponsor? no? nvm I can afford it myself... well who will reject blessings? If you are led to give, I'm definitely led to receive! :)

I need more rest, more time for myself to do the things I like.. but what are the things I like? even myself is unsure... maybe sleep? or just laze at home?
Temple maintenance is what I need!
But shall figure what do I like to do most :)

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

@ 1:42 AM

TIRED...

Tired of not enough rest... can't seen to sleep well at night... not to mention can't sleep early... seens to have lots of things to do at night... which in actual fact... nothing...

Tired of seeing and hearing, experiencing things or rather how I look at things...
Been thinking so much lately... that I shall sanctify my mind and tune it to think like the way God think, seeing things the way God sees, hearing the way God hears...
It's hard... but just got to try...

Tired of wavering to what diff people comment... I want tp be myself.. a character/personality of my own... to be able to stand out amg the rest.
To be one who people will look up to.. not just a shadow in other people... which sometime caught in between...

Tired of being used... nvm shan't say much... but hope it will be over soon...
thought of explaining to the other parties involve who might once again think it's my fault/doing again...
but like what Pst Kong preached last week. I have the confidence that God is with me, and I'm doing nothing wrong on my side... I need not explain at all.. God is my confidence.. if anything bad turns out. I have a clear conscience :)

Tired of always hiding myself from people... it just like, people I'm 'close' with... I will go to the extend of pretending never see them, why? last time is I will siam leaders (ZS, other zone cgls, ministry leaders) now even friends... :(
But times, it's not I siam people, but I'm 大近视, can't really see unless I'm quite near you? maybe is a gd excuse not to greet people?
Don't know why.. it's just me.. I wanted so much to be close to people, yet scare of being hurt... maybe is a way to protect myself, maybe is just my own pride? whatever...

Tired of being tired... I have a very tired-look, guess is lack of rest and lack of vitamins? Tovia saw me just now without my make up... she said I look very sick and tired.. got to rest more..
Hmm when can I ever look healthy? and most imptly be healthier?
Well, I do have rosy cheeks at times... but it's my eye circles... maybe shall invest in some detox/facial that will helps! any sponsor? no? nvm I can afford it myself... well who will reject blessings? If you are led to give, I'm definitely led to receive! :)

I need more rest, more time for myself to do the things I like.. but what are the things I like? even myself is unsure... maybe sleep? or just laze at home?
Temple maintenance is what I need!
But shall figure what do I like to do most :)